-The mind of madness apaintingzombie
An open letter…
I have the tendency to overreact. Because of that, I ended up hurting someone who meant everything to me. I went crazy over our breakup and didn’t know how to handle it. Granted, I was more in love than I had ever been. That’s still no excuse. I flipped flopped over what I wanted to do, I went on crazy rants, and I tried too hard. I wanted to remain friends with him, but I still had all these feelings for him. Seeing him move on to someone new didn’t help my cause either. I think it pushed me over the edge. It made me come off as even crazier. So I decided to back off a little. He took it to mean that I wanted him out of my life. All I wanted was some space to heal my heart, not to lose him completely. Now I’ve gone and done just that. I’ve lost him. Sitting back and analyzing the situation, I’ve come realize that I was always over the top in our relationship. Maybe I was afraid to lose him or maybe I still carried scars from my past. Whatever it was I pushed him slowly away from me with my overreacting. I never meant for any of this to happen. I care for him deeply and want him to be happy. Even if it’s not me. I wish we can start over again as friends. I’ve let him go and I’m ready to move on. I just don’t think he can ever forgive me for all the crap that I’ve put him through. If you’re reading this, I’m ready to be in your life again. I never wanted out of it in the first place. I’m no longer hurting over the end of our relationship. I’m only hurting over the loss of your friendship. I’m ready to have that again and value it fully. My world was a better place with you in it. I promise to not be crazy anymore. I promise to not try so hard. I promise to not stress you out anymore. I promise to not ask too much of you anymore. I also promise to keep all of the other promises I’ve made you. Give me another chance.
Death Cab for Cutie (via themagicraunch)
Seeing this song live, I actually cried. If I’m being honest.(via lovealwaysremains420)